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Buying time

It seems like most of what I “do” is really just a way to buy time so that I can learn and grow into my true self and passions. Maybe I’m studying a major that is most likely not going to directly lead me to the job(s) of my dreams. Maybe this internship hasn’t been as directly instructive as I had hoped or been promised. But no matter what I’m officially doing or if I even like what I’m currently doing, I’m always learning something, coming closer to understanding my true potential, bouncing along in this funny thing called life, somehow, usually quite indirectly, making my way in this world. It surely makes life interesting to not know where this or that is leading and what new surprises or opportunities (sometimes cleverly disguised as setbacks) will pop up along the way. I sometimes forget to take joy in the adventurous nature of a not so well planned and controlled life, however, today I was reminded that all things are possible, but nothing is certain and that’s just the way I like it to be!

Nice to meet you world! Take me for a ride!

Time heals all wounds…

This song has almost perfectly articulated my reality for the past three years…and now the dawn has come, The healing process is beginning and there is a hope, a light, at the end of what has been the longest and darkest tunnel of my life.

“Beauty From Pain”

“The lights go out all around me One last candle to keep out the night And then the darkness surrounds me I know I’m alive but I feel like I’ve died And all that’s left is to accept that it’s over My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made I try to keep warm but I just grow colder I feel like I’m slipping away

After all this has passed, I still will remain After I’ve cried my last, there’ll be beauty from pain Though it won’t be today, someday I’ll hope again And there’ll be beauty from pain You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me The best I can do is just get through the day When life before is only a memory I’ll wonder why God lets me walk through this place And though I can’t understand why this happened I know that I will when I look back someday And see how you’ve brought beauty from ashes And made me as gold purified through these flames

After all this has passed, I still will remain After I’ve cried my last, there’ll be beauty from pain Though it won’t be today, someday I’ll hope again And there’ll be beauty from pain You will bring beauty from my pain

Here I am at the end of me (at the end of me) Tryin’ to hold to what I can’t see (to what I can’t see) I forgot how to hope This night’s been so long I cling to Your promise There will be a dawn

After all this has passed, I still will remain After I’ve cried my last, there’ll be beauty from pain Though it won’t be today, someday I’ll hope again And there’ll be beauty from pain You will bring beauty from my pain”

family

Tonight I got to have a Skype video call with my family.  My brother and his girlfriend were out visiting my parents and my sister and her husband and it was so great to see them all together.  Of course it made me wish I could be there with them all, but mostly I was just reminded of how incredibly blessed I am to have such a great family.  When I look at each of their faces I think of all the unique talents and passions that each one possesses and can think of some way, or many ways, that each one has encouraged or inspired my own life.  So tonight, I am very grateful for my family and really looking forward to keeping in touch with those awesome people.